New Life

As most of you know, Jenna and I have embarked upon a new adventure together and I just wanted to report that everything is super-mega-awesome-amazing-spectacular!!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!! Seriously though, life couldn’t be better right now. She has made herself right at home in Virginia and is diligently trying to find some gainful employment. Having a government security clearance in these parts is a huge plus and the opportunities abound. The kids have taken to her as well and everything is going quite smoothly around the house.

It is gamer-nerd paradise in our living room with 2 flat panel tv’s, a 360, a Wii, 2 PS3s, a PS2, 2 PSPs, and a DS. Not including the PC and two laptops! Holy high electrical bill Batman! But so, so worth it!

Anyways, life has taken a turn for the better and looks to be continuing in that direction for the foreseeable future. It is about damned time.

My mood in video form

Dare I hope?

Well, things are starting to look up for me for the first time in a long time. I think I have a roomie starting the first of September, which will help out a lot in keeping the bills straight. Hell, I may even have some fun money every once in a while now, but keep your fingers crossed for me that he commits and moves in. Will be heading down to the Eastern Shore To visit my family on labor day weekend. Haven’t seen them since last Christmas. Guess I will be breaking the news to them then, seems to be better to do it in person I think. Other things are brightening up. Won’t mention in here, but one of you knows. lol So, keep me in your thoughts and prayers and maybe, just maybe, things will start to be normal again.

Eww, just eww

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Life, and how to live it

Do you have a song, an album, or a band that when you listen to it, you are transported back to a better time in your life? Does it bring back feelings and memories long dormant due to the myriad of hills, dales, twists, and turns that life has laid before you? I have many that are like that, but I am going to highlight one band and album in particular because they have meant so much to me throughout my early years and to this day.

R.E.M.-Document

Document is regarded by most R.E.M. fans as the bands magnum opus, and I must say that I agree whole heartedly.  From the first track, Finest Worksong, to the last, Oddfellows Local 151, the album seems to capture the haunting beauty and tragedy that is the South. Stipes lyrics are at times enigmatic, brilliant, somber and playful like a patchwork of joy and pain. Buck’s guitar adds a mystical sense of wonder and awe, while Mills’ bass and Berry’s drumming seem to be very natural and organic as if nothing else would have made any sense at all. Simply put, it is a masturful piece of art and should have a place in every music lovers collection.

Every time I hear this album I am taken back to better days, days of innocence and a pure naivity that I cannot regain, but this album serves as a bookmark to that time of my life so that I can catch a glimpse from time to time.

My new tattoo(eventually)

Ok this part will be the centerpiece:

with four of these in black and white in the north, south, east, and west directions:

and then the same but smaller in the NE, NW, SE, and SW positions.

So it will look like a sun, or compass rose in the end. Now to save up the money and find an artist that can do it correctly!

30 year old rut

How in the hell did I end up here? Thirty years old, mountains of debt, little money to pay it, stuck in a job I hate in a town that I hate a marriage in pieces, disrespectful selfish children, all crammed into a house that is too small.

How did it all end up like this? Fate? Poor decisions? Bad luck? The forces of the universe working against me?

Whatever the reason, the one thing I am certain of is that it is my fault. Someway, somehow I just know I did this to myself.

I think where I really went wrong was not following my dreams. all my life, I’ve wanted to be a singer. I know. I know, me and half the rest of the country, but still that is/was my dream. Then college age came around and instead of taking the risk I went the safe route and chose a business degree. Well, that just made me miserable.  I then sunk into a lifestyle of drug abuse and lethargy until I either dropped or failed my remaining classes and left.

Now, at the age of 30 with a family, I am stuck with the safe route of being responsible. Yes, it has it’s merits with a steady paycheck (as small as it is) but it lacks any sort of fulfillment to my creative and artistic side and I can’t do this job for the rest of my life.

As the title says, I’m in a rut.

Fine, I did it.

Are you all happy now?!?! Ok, since you all twisted my arm now you must view and comment! Once I write a proper blog of course.